• Throat sore...
• Old man yelled at me for refusing to fill his refill, a benzo, which resides in a store that's not open...
• Snickered when he bitched that Wal-Mart wouldn't do it last night, either...
• Bought really cool tea-light holder at Zehr's for far cheaper then Party-Lite was selling it for...
• Still obsessed with cross-stitch...
• Tripped over a chair at work, bloodied up my arm...
• Calling Tenacious in the AM...
• Need sleep now...

Why?

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight


Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepard meet shepard
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight


Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced love like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight


I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate 

Apparently, I am pseudo-camping this weekend in T's backyard... I have found a sleeping bag... It needs to be washed... It's very musky...

Now to survive work tomorrow...

Finished school on Friday, and worked that night as well... Spent weekend brooding and pondering what to do next, also playing video games... Today, I don't know what I'm going to do, but tomorrow I have work... Work may be my salvation for the next few days... My way of staying sane...

One month... That is all that stands between me and reality again...

I feel overwhelmed with the choices I have... Things have come up that I never imagined would be possible... All I have to do is choose...

Which, of course, is the problem... I have to make a choice... My brain is debating what it would never have debated before... And it's really only the few things I'm allowing myself to think about right now... There are others, lurking, waiting to grab at my attention and squeeze... 

I just have to get through this month... So many things to do still, but so few hours... Things to study, and write, and develop... Tonight, for instance, research for an essay coupled with studying for a 'mid-term' exam crossed with organizing notes blended with writing a few pages of a final paper, all so I don't become overwhelmed with the two shifts I'm working this weekend... 

April 25th... That's my expiry date; my best-before... That's my end game...


Or maybe my beginning...


"I know that it's your soul, but could you bottle it up?"

But I'm feeling weird... The last thing my brain wants to do is read computerized notes for hours on end... My room is clean, the luggage put away...

Oh, yes... Luggage...

I spent all of February in Nova Scotia, Sydney to be exact... I was overrun by relatives... By the time i was done, I was quite ready to stay in my own bed in Sarnia and never leave it again... I got home late Wednesday (March 5th), having been annoyed by the mall-like Pierson airport... I was called into work Thursday night (March 6th)... I love my work... This being away thing has made me realize that...

And then on Wednesday (March 12th) I was bussed to Toronto for two nights... I visited two hospitals, Novopharm, and McKesson... I fell in love with Princess Margarate and Novopharm... And for entirely different reasons... I love the sterile technique aspect of the hospital work, and Novopharm has amazing quality control labs... I will be applying to these places very soon... Hopefully somebody will bite...

I came home Friday (March 14th), and hugged my bed... I'm taking it with me where ever I go now... I don't care if I'll be staying in a hotel... I'm taking my bed with me!!! So what if this will require a U-Haul rental... Maybe I can get my own dedicated truck?

I passed in a research paper worth 20% of one mark today... I also had a math test... We had two different speakers today... Tomorrow is my Ethics mid-term... I have things due next week... I have tests next week... I have shifts at work... 

Why am I not studying??? Shit...

Hospital placement begins on Monday... And while I am excited, it took a lot to get to this point... Three terms of school, two retail placements, and one night spent in an airport silently cursing Air Canada for an unopen check-in counter and thus denying me the wonderful Tim Hortons coffee in the secured area... Oh yes... I knew it was there...

I was supposed to leave on Wednesday... My flight should have left Sarnia at about six am... We found out late Tuesday night that it had been cancelled... Minor stress at that point... We changed some details around, and figured out that I could leave on the eleven am flight, for a later flight from Toronto, and then still catch the same flight to Sydney... So, woke up Wednesday morning, got ready... Had breakfast even, in preparation for the day ahead of me... Then found out, my flight out of Sarnia was cancelled again... More stress...

So, we made plans... Major traveling plans, because the airline could not guarantee that I would be able to fly out the next day from Sarnia... We said 'screw you' Sarnia flight, and proceeded to take that out of the equation entirely... So, instead of a quick flight to TO, I bussed out from London to Pierson, and spent the night in an airport which I have dubbed the most boring place on earth at three am... 

Weirdly enough, I had no issues from that point on... Well, I had a five minute turn-around in Halifax, but still... I've done that before... Grabbed a water and a magazine from a stand... Got on an eighteen seat flight... No problems...

I ended up being awake for forty hours... My head is kind of fuzzy, but I got my eight hours, so it should clear later on today...

The plan for today is to go to the hospital and find the pharmacy, introduce myself to my boss... Get a bus map... Figure out how to get to the hospital on Monday by nine, and buy some bus tickets or a pass... Reaquaint myself with the area in general... It's been eleven or twelve years... It's not as familiar as it once was...

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